The NOPE Folder
Do you ever start something and change your mind? It happens to me all the time. I'll be typing away on a blog post, happily oblivious to how shitty it is (or my attitude is) until I read it and decide to toss it in the NOPE folder.
I have six posts in my draft folder. Three of them were started this week. None of them are publish-worthy. There's a lot of speculation about the future and some flat-out fallacies I hope never come true (coronavirus, I'm looking at you). Instead of having a preexisting blog I could publish and go, I need to come up with something brilliant to say right now. The question is, will it be amazing brilliant or sarcastic brilliant...
There's a debate tonight. Watch it. There are unbiased news sources out there bringing you the facts about what's going on in the world. Find them. Read/watch them. Ask questions. Don't trust everything you read as fact. Question your biases and hold yourself accountable for your own truth.
My truth: I had excess anxiety today and it shows. I made some serious mistakes. I could blame the excess caffeine (holy wow our work coffee is strong), but I know it's my stupid brain. High anxiety makes me more critical of what I write, what I read, what I hear, and what I experience. I wish I could throw this whole day in the NOPE folder, but it doesn't work that way. I can only hope to do better tomorrow.
I hope you can be honest with yourself today, too. The world would be a better place if we could dissolve the little lies we tell ourselves and each other and toss them in the NOPE folder. We have to start somewhere. Neale Donald Walsch said it best: